Do I deserve punishment?
Do I deserve punishment? Details
All I do is let everyone down, including myself. I’ve been trying so hard to please everyone around me and every time I mess up, the only thing that feels right is punishing myself. I used to just hide in my room all day and avoid my friends. It’s not like they’d want to hang out with someone like me anyway. But that wasn’t enough.
Hurting myself is the only way I can escape the pain and disappointment I’m always battling. I’m frustrated, I’m confused, and I’m starting to hate myself. Suffering is the only thing I feel like I deserve.